Ah come, come quickly, spring!
Come and lift us towards our culmination.

He’d slept soundly indeed. Dreamlessly. Until a voice whispered near.

Martin …

Lily?

He sighed, a long and drifting exhalation. The fog of sleep swirled, pulling him back, drawing him down as if into an abyss. At its rim … images … ethereal, beloved. Rosie, Eimear, Flynn … Vin–

Martin! The touch to the back of his hand was electric, both ice and fire. Sparks arced behind his still-closed eyes. Need you!

He startled, lifted his head. The room was off-black, a promise of dawn outside his window. Had he forgotten to set the alarm? The numbers of the small clock at his bedside glowed a ghostly green, the pointing hands declaring he should be out of bed, out of his night clothes, showered and shaved and into today’s vestments, already summoning high thoughts for the homily he would, as usual, deliver on the fly.

I will, but …

His pillow received him with a feathery huff. The clock seemed to tick faster than it should. Louder, too.

Martin!

After prayers, after offering up his work and effort, he took to his office and settled into his chair … reached for the desk lamp’s pull chain.  From the back of the top drawer he drew a notebook. Black-speckled-cardboard bound, half its pages were torn from the spine, the stub of a pencil lodged in the hollow left behind. He reached for the sharpener he kept on his desk, the small, bronze, die-cast water well he’d had since boyhood. Not for the first time did he make a wish as the shavings curled into the basket. With the touch of his thumb, he tested the point of the lead. He drew the paper closer, into the light.

No abacus could tally the mornings he wrote first to Lily. Before checking his calendar, before even thinking about going ‘round in the neighborhood, he told her everything. Everything she’d want to hear first, always … and too many things she might just as well forego. Things he’d rather not tell his own confessor. His complaints, his regrets. His happinesses too, and there were many. The dreams he still nurtured. You’re a good man, Martin Geraghty, the dark and the light of you, she’d said more than once over the years. She’d had a way of making him believe that and every day he thanked her for it. Every day he strove to deserve her confidence.

Oh, but afterward, afterward, he’d rip his pages to shreds, wadding his heart’s words to paper pellets, carrying the pocketful to the garden, mounding all in the bronze basin nestled in the near flower bed, adding long sprigs of rosemary, touching fire to all.

Tabhair dom neart chun éirí suas agus an misneach a eitilt le sciatháin de lasair, he’d whisper. Give me the strength to rise up from the ashes and the courage to fly with wings of flame.

The smoke would clear, he’d dump the cooled ash at the base of the rose climbing the porch railing, the engraved triskelion inside the bronze bowl would be revealed again. The triple spiral. Father, Son, Ghost.  Mind, body, spirit. Past, present, future. The human, the celestial, the Otherworld. Should he kick the bucket – after writing but before torching the evidence – they’d find only the one love letter on the desk beneath his cheek, not the dozens, the hundreds, he’d written over time. He’d be forgiven that one mortal moment, wouldn’t he?

But this morning, having maneuvered the piles of books on the floor he fully intended to reorder and arrange back on the shelves, seated, pencil in hand, the entirety of what – and who – had been revealed to him, of the shift of the worlds, the thinning of the door at last … he knew. He would write nothing down. Nothing. He was an old man. At any moment his heart could seize. Not a single word, regardless of its vagary, could be left behind that might break this new and sacred trust. He folded his hands and rested his forehead against the knuckles of his thumbs, speaking instead into the Ever, into the Always, beginning as he had and would …

Lily, your children are healthy and strong. They honor you with their open hearts and their enthusiasms, their steadfastness and their loyalties to each other and to those they love. They miss you.

I miss you.

May I speak to you again of aloneness? I believed I was alone, feared that my usefulness would slump and crumble, that I would have, in the long, stumbling end, only emptiness.  But I’ve met a man who is more than a man, who is Aloneness. Who has faced his aloneness as I never have. And with that facing, has come into a sense of true belonging. I’m not sure he understands that the gift he is grateful for is the very gift he gives.

Oh, Lily! You came so close to meeting him yourself, that night in the park, the moon so shining. Rosie’s tears … remember how you dried them again and again? How you cried yourself, when you thought you’d walked her into her first disappointment? Regret no longer. She wasn’t broken-hearted, Love, no, but celebrating a miracle in her life. And very soon, I believe, she will weep again with that same incandescent joy.

‘Tis all so much mystery. Beautiful mystery. The twilight waters at Loch Gur have receded after all, and the Tree of Life hidden there has braided its branches to a bridge for crossing, human to Otherworld and back. The king of the fairies, the great warrior, has stepped through, Lily, riding not on a silver-shod steed, but wearing fur-trimmed boots and a hooded black cloak. With the voice and face and hands of an angel.

The why of his visit, the how, the what next …

His silent words trailed away. There was more, so much more.

“An rud atá le teacht, tiocfaidh sé,” he finished aloud. “What is to come, will come. I will wait and be ready. M’fhocal duit. M’fhocal duit. M’fhocal duit. I promise you. I promise you. I promise you.”

 * * *

 Catherine fashioned the round, thick paper filter to a layered funnel and nestled it to the glass cone of the coffeepot. Just under her breath she counted the measures of rich, dark grounds, hesitating three short of her standard recipe. She looked over her shoulder. Eimear stood in the niche housing the water cooler, her back to the bright room, the coiled wire handle of the tea kettle in her hands.

“Go on,” Eimear advised, without a glance Catherine’s way. She opened the spigot. “I like it strong, too.”

The burner’s blue flames licked the blackened base of the old copper pot; the metal pinged and racketed. One hip against the cold side of the stove, Catherine folded her arms to wait for the proclamation of steam from the kettle’s spout, watching as Eimear, at the sink, pushed the curtains wider apart on their white metal rod. Her forefingers hooked under the cast iron sash lifts, she raised the paned window as high as it would go – a signal to Mab, who, leaving off her after-breakfast grooming, leapt to the countertop, climbing then to the sill where, settled to her haunches, she pressed a soft paw to the screen. Outside, a bright yellow bird warbled. Clinging to a near branch arching over the walkway, the goldfinch cocked his head, his keen black eye fixed on the rapt kitten in the window well. Mab chattered deep in her throat. But as Eimear stroked from her brindled forehead, between her ears and shoulder blades and down along her spine, the kitten closed her eyes, blissful it seemed, content with dreaming, with the separation of world from world, if she could have that music and this touch.

Eimear tipped the cold soaking water from their supper dishes and stacked them on the countertop beside the sink. Was it only last night? Just hours before, they had warmed the céilidh’s leftover lasagna, sat down to talk …

“I should move my car,” Catherine said. “When Flynn comes home, he’ll wonder why I’m here so early in the morning. He’ll think something’s wrong.”

Two turns of cold, three of hot, Eimear twisted the faucet’s spoked porcelain handles, fitted the stopper to the drain and squirted in a lemony dish soap, staring all along into a thoughtful distance. She swished her hands slowly through the sudsing, rising water. “But, Catherine. Something is wrong.”

Thinking to slip her arm around Eimear’s waist, invite her lean on her shoulder and skills, Catherine crossed the patterned floor to the window, and for a moment her friend did shift and rest against her.

“By intuition, mighty things assert themselves,” Eimear murmured.¹ Her smile was unsettled, one that stopped and started, but she dunked the sponge, took up a dish. “Best if he’s on a bit of alert, before he happens upon the reeking evidence left on the front porch.”

She’s ready, Catherine thought. Finding perspective … or pretending it until it comes. Between them, unspoken, an agreement firmed – to speak of other things … for now.

The kettle’s whistle shrilled.

Catherine poured in the last of the water and swirled the grounds a third time. The aroma – a dusky, honeyed brew of chocolate and walnuts and caramel – elicited a deep sigh of anticipation. Iris and Philip would approve of the roast, she imagined, eager to introduce Eimear to the couple’s shop and wares, reminding herself to ask Liz – Tonight! – about the possibility of a delivery from the wellspring below. Eimear, only yesterday, had helped her maneuver the five-gallon bottles left at her door into the apartment. Then, she couldn’t have gathered the words to explain the source, but now Eimear had tasted the waters herself. She nested the wooden spoon to a ceramic rest and turned to broach the idea.

Eimear gripped the sink’s rim. Braced on stiffened arms, her brows lowered, her lips pursed, she seemed to study the landscape beyond the window with dissatisfaction. “How, Catherine?” she asked, her voice low and circumspect. “How do they eat?”

No one walked the private garden, and from the churchyard, no voices drifted close. The rarity of a double lot and an insulation of trees and blooming bushes between them and the next house down, the neighbor would hear nothing, not even a murmur of their conversation, even if an ear were pressed to the tall fencing, yet Eimear’s instinct of discretion was stirring – validating, were confirmation necessary.

“You’re looking at your roses as if you want to snatch them out of the ground and plant … cabbages,” Catherine said, just raising the pitch of her reply. It’s all right. We can talk. Though still … always … vigilance. “Or … what was it Rosie mentioned? Neeps?”

Eimear wrinkled her nose. “And wouldn’t cabbage stink up the tunnels? And neeps even worse. Far too often Rosie and I could smell those dishes when we rounded the corner after school. We had friends enough to wrangle invitations from, but they were as likely as we to have the same boiled supper.” She reached through the soapy froth for the stopper. The water whirlpooled and rushed the drain, leaving a vacuum of quiet in its wake. “But truly … how?” Eimear repeated, her expression a sincerity of curiosity and concern and conscience.

“That was one of my first questions, too,” Catherine said. “After … well, after.” She glanced at the wall clock hung high on the soffit. She plucked a cotton towel from its fold over the handle of the stove, held it out. “Coffee’s ready. Let’s sit.” And Eimear dried her lathery hands.

We try to live as well as we can, Vincent had told her. Though there had been dark times, leaner times, anxious times, they lived far better than that.

“You’d imagine meals to be meager and repetitive, but they’re not. William’s quite an inventive cook and a fine baker, too. Have you heard about the coal bunkers under so many of the brownstones in Manhattan?”

“I’ve more than heard. We had one ourselves, though the house was long converted to oil. Dad shoveled out the storage closet to make Rosie’s darkroom. And there’s a coal hole cover out front of Howland House. Dreier’s Coal, it reads. I’d hazard all the houses here have chutes to the basements, padlocked shut.”

“Right. Hardly anyone heats with coal anymore,” Catherine said. “And a lot of the old storage rooms beneath the sidewalks still have product left from the last deliveries.”

“And so, they’ve reclaimed it.”

“Um hmm. The cellars are … accessible. Years ago, Vincent told me, before William took over as cook, they built a coal-fired oven.”

“But coal is a smelly heat. And the clinkers and ash …”

Catherine shook her head, awed herself. An amazement, even now. “You saw. The venting system, the hot water, the, ummm, facilities … I can’t explain it.”

Eimear chuckled. “Let’s not try, yes? Martin taught us to be careful with our questions …”

“You might get answers,” Catherine finished, and they shared a smile.

“But …” Eimear began again, sobered. “What do they cook and bake?”

“Several helpers have food businesses – restaurants and small groceries,” Catherine told her. “They’re able to send down staples and fresh vegetables and fruits and eggs and milk and cheese. One or two in particular make sure the root cellars are full before wintertime. And then, ministers at more than one church who run shelters and pantries and meal kitchens share the food they receive from Second Harvest. There’s terrible waste in this city.”

“So little tolerance for … imperfection.”

With a resigned chuff of air, Catherine agreed. “They make use of everything below. Watermelon rind pickles, vegetable and meat trimmings simmered for stock, overripe fruit made into vinegar.”

“Scrap Soup on Saturdays, and softening potatoes and who-knows-what turned into Jágervit? Mom was like that, short of the home-brewing, but we knew people …”

Catherine grinned. “Exactly.” She pulled closer the earthenware mug Eimear had filled. “There are … connections … all over the city,” she went on. “Even beyond it, I’m discovering. In mid-summer every year, Father receives a notice that a community canning center north of Manhattan has been reserved – for a week. A few of the helpers and a contingent from the tunnels … congregate … and they work together.”

“Work together … on what?”

“A truck comes with a delivery. Tomatoes, green beans, corn. Cucumbers, peppers. Peaches and concord grapes and blueberries. Then in the fall, another kitchen reservation gets made, there’s another delivery, and they put up apple pie filling and applesauce and pear preserves. And can spinach and kale. Not Vincent’s favorites, I’ve heard.” She took a careful sip of her coffee. “Other than making jelly when they have extra fruit, or pickles, it’s not something they’re able do in such quantity below. They don’t have the equipment. The commercial pressure canners and walk-in refrigerators and the sinks and sterilizers and stainless tables make it safe work, and relatively quick. Apparently.”

“Apparently?”

“I’ve never helped with the preserving. I don’t have a clue. I can’t even buy one.”

“You sound knowledgeable.”

“Well, William’s a big talker. He gets pretty excited about the variety and the abundance. And about the event. He’s such a stickler for process, he, umm, educates and retrains everyone involved. The rest of us can’t help but overhear and learn. He takes it all very seriously, making sure the meals provide quality nutrition. And he’d never forgive himself if he made – or thought he made – anyone sick.”

“Sleepy’s okay, though, yes?” Eimear looked at her over the rim of her mug. “Do the trucks come from you, Catherine?”

“No. Vincent says they’ve been coming for fifteen years or so. It’s a mystery from whom. It started with just one pick-up load of tomatoes, but now there are two much larger refrigerated vans. The food comes from different farms – from upstate one time, from New Jersey another – and the drivers have been hired; they unload and they’re gone. The kitchen reservation’s prepaid. One of the oldest helpers – Sebastien, the man you met in Foley Square? – receives a postcard in the mail, a confirmation. Then he contacts another friend, who gets in touch with another and another, until a crew is organized and the necessary supplies – and a vehicle to haul everything to a secret loading bay when they’re done – are rounded up.”

“An underground up top, you mean.”

“Pretty much.”

So … about the source of the deliveries …”

“Father has ideas, but Vincent’s not sure he agrees. I thought, maybe, the food came through some connection in William’s life before, but Vincent told me William moved to the tunnels a year after it all started.”

Her coffee returned to the table, Eimear cupped the mug’s barrel in her palms, laced her fingers through the handle. “Sebastien? The street magician?”

“Well, now he is. He had … another life, another name. Most everyone involved …”

“Do you know all the stories, Catherine? The befores? Will I meet … others?”

Catherine smiled, both in encouragement and at the developing snapshot in her mind of Father’s face at the news of a new friend. Surprisingly, as the photograph firmed, he wasn’t scowling. No resistance in the face of such confidence, such surety.² He’d offered her plenty, for reasons complex and convoluted, but he was mellowing.  He’d accepted Wren; he’d welcome Eimear. She knew it.

“I don’t,” she said. “And you will.”

Steam still rose from the dark brew Eimear contemplated. “Two truckloads of summer produce, however large, cannot be enough for as many as seem to live below,” she persisted. “And a far hike for Liz and Wren and the dozens more I saw this morning to stock up and carry.”

The particulars and the logistics eluded her. The northern tunnels had thrived for decades, part of the great circle, but autonomous and self-reliant, with histories and relationships forged below and above that surprised even Vincent. No doubt that independence extended to the procurement and management of resources. “You’re right,” Catherine said. “And I’m not sure how things work here. The network of helpers …”

“But, Catherine, I don’t have the impression the communities accept outright charity. And aren’t there things–”

“Things they have to buy? Yes. You noticed, I’m sure, the antiques and vintage … stuff?”

“Rosie would hyperventilate, let loose down there.”

“More than a few artisans live below. One woman restores furniture. She’s amazing. She carves replacement parts for the damaged wood from similarly aged pieces that can’t be saved – rosettes and garlands, acorns, faces even – then polishes the whole. Some friends own a store in the Village, not that far from Rosie’s, actually. They’re coffee and tea merchants, but they sell Luiza’s work too. And there’s another shop close by. called Time Pieces, an antique watch and clock repair business. Two sisters own it, but someone below–

“Someone below does the restorations.”

“Well, someone below helps with the restorations. The sisters are fine craftswomen themselves. They claim the income Anders generates through their account, but funnel the money to him.”

“I know that shop. I took Dad’s pocket watch in – his grandfather’s actually, a Baillie. Mom always kept it going after we lost him and on the sideboard in the hall. As have I, all these years, but I was vigorous with it, I suppose, and wound it too tightly. It refused to tick. I dropped it by one Saturday on my way to clerk at Rosie’s. It’s there now.”

“Or somewhere fairly close Below,” Catherine allowed, lifting her cup with both hands. “There’s one man – English, we call him – who barters his bookkeeping skills. And then some – with papers, I’d guess you’d say – work above for a salary, either for helpers with businesses or at regular jobs.”

“Like Wren and Stuart. And you.”

“It’s trickier for them, but yeah.” The last inch of coffee in the rounded well of her mug was still hot; her thoughts mirrored the steam’s wispy dance. Put like that, her job, her wealth, seemed less separating. “The kids work, too, a few hours a week. Not just at chores below, but above, for our friends. Cleaning up or stocking shelves after closing. Looking in on helpers who need help themselves, taking them food or medicine, keeping them company. They have to be careful to stay away from trouble, to always know where an entrance is and to never expose the doorway, but it’s easy – too easy, really – to go unnoticed in this city. There’s an exchange, friend to friend, a promise made and kept. To give help and support to those who need it and to accept help and support from those who offer it to you. Below is … a sanctuary. For some a forever place, for others a place of healing, of gathering strength. No one forgets. The relationships have reasons; they evolve, but … most … are never broken. The trust … It’s how we live.”

“I understand.” Eimear rose and from a tin on the counter, removed a half-round loaf.  The foiled paper wrapping peeled back, she situated a brown, raisin-studded bread on a wooden board, pulled a long, serrated knife from a drawer, a squat jar of clear, crimson jelly from the refrigerator. When she sat down, she turned the lid of a stoneware crock upside down, the hollow bell of it packed with butter kept cool and soft in a bath of water. “The kids … how many?” She pushed back her chair once more and crossed the room to a stacked china cabinet.

“A lot. I’m not really sure of the number,” Catherine told her, accepting a crazed, crockery plate the plain color of oatmeal and a stubby silver spreader so ornate as to be the dish’s polar opposite. “I know them all in the central community …”

“Where you live, with Vincent. Mostly.”

“Yes. Mostly.” Hardly across her threshold, intuitively, even if the flattened cardboard cartons had prodded her question, Eimear had sensed Catherine’s fading connection to her apartment – Are you moving? “But in the outlying neighborhoods …” she continued as Eimear’s gaze slipped from hers. Without looking, Catherine knew the round-faced clock on the wall behind her ticked doggedly on.

“Wren told me the children weren’t all born below,” Eimear said, focusing again on the repast laid before them on the table. She sliced fat wedges from the loaf.

“That’s true,” she answered and wondered why Eimear chose to divulge that out of all the facts and mysteries Wren had surely shared … but the moment passed.

She scraped a curl of butter on her cut of bread, layered on a skim of preserves. Crabapples. We make the most delicious jelly from them, she remembered Eimear saying. The first bite was heaven – creamy and tart, hearty and sweet and chewy. She was hungry, suddenly and seriously so.

Vincent. She breathed away the clutch of requirement, an echoing hollowness she felt, hers but not hers. Whatever was before him would require fuel; Liz had all but said that aloud. Sandwiches, a tin of cookies, half a cake in a lunch hamper. She hoped there’d been plenty packed, that he wouldn’t wait …

“Isn’t it too warm down there for root cellaring?”

Catherine sat back in her chair, surprised – and not – that Eimear had heard and remembered the passing mention, but Eimear didn’t question again the supplier of the larder’s bounty, interested more in the science.

Or interested more in a veering of topic. Not Wren. Not Edward’s custody hearing.

Not the task Liz set before Vincent

Not Flynn’s arrival.

Catherine endeavored to look forward, to project the quiet voice of tomorrow.

After this. After this dark day.

The practicality of science would one day fall by the wayside, she envisioned, once Eimear was received at home, by Father, at a supper in her welcome, a supper of simple but splendid plenty. As it would when she first entered the Chamber of the Falls and witnessed the sourceless, golden illumination, as it would on the Whispering Bridge, as it would in the miracle of sun that slanted through the atrium of their private rooms beyond the stained glass.

“The temperature will hardly vary month to month,” Eimear went on. “And all seasons hover, what, in the mid-fifties? Warmer below in winter than on the city streets.” Eimear traced the groove of the wooden collar of the Chemex coffee pot, then grasped it and poured their second cup, though Catherine was sure she checked her watch in the process, comparing, perhaps, with a flickered glance at the wall clock, the verdicts of the two timekeepers. “Mom agitated until Dad made one for her in the basement, but they had to layer it with insulation to have it cool enough. Around 40 degrees, I remember her wanting. It’s just a little thing, maybe eight square, dug into the dirt behind Rosie’s darkroom, with shelves on both sides and a door from an old Frigidaire, but it kept the cabbages … far too well, if you ask me.”

“They have … ways,” Catherine said. “Places. Chambers cooled at ground-level with streams of icy water, vents at the ceilings that whisk away the warmer air. William has storage down to a science, as does, I’m going to guess, Liz. There’s a room of stone ledges with a hard-packed salt floor for shelving the canned goods. A drier room to hold sweet potatoes and winter squash. A damp, cold room specifically for white potatoes and carrots; another for apples. They’re kept separate because of the, ummm, gases.” Catherine tucked back her hair. “I nod and say oh and uh huh whenever it’s talked about. The explanation always seems to be missing something.”

“The magic, maybe?”

“I think so.”

“These are really beautiful,” Catherine said, inspecting her now-empty mug. The glazed design was carved and textured, its many shades of white scored horizontally with black. The interior was a rich, woodsy rust color, marked with striations like the growth rings of a tree, but smoothed as though sanded and oiled, sanded and oiled again. Shiny and warm, the lip was rounded and full. Joined to the plump barrel in perfect balance, the broad handle cradled her thumb.

“One of Rosie’s crafters made them,” Eimear told her. “A potter from Maine, the life-partner, actually, of the artist of the sculpture you purchased from the shop.” ³ She propped one elbow on the tabletop, settled her chin to her palm. “Was it only weeks ago, Catherine?”

“A couple months, yeah.”

“I’m glad, even if it were troubles bringing us together.”⁴

Eimear’s hand rested on the yellow formica. Catherine covered it with hers. “Everything’s going to be all right.”

“It has to be.”

_______________

Title: Walt Whitman. Calamus. Leaves of Grass. 1891

Opening Quotation: D. H. Lawrence. Craving for Spring.

1. Emily Dickinson. Fascicle 15, #420.

2. Iron Behind the Velvet. Chapter 51. I Know of Nothing Else but Miracles. References Stuart’s introduction of Wren to Father.

3. I Carry Your Heart.Chapter 7 – Love-Throb in the Heart.  The meeting with Eimear at Rosie’s shop; the purchase of the amethyst geode/bronze sculpture.

4. I Carry Your Heart. Chapter 3 –Counterparts. The first encounter with Eimear and Flynn at the courthouse.